U gotta temme wht is it.....

i'm standing still, contemplating where this is going
it seems i'm falling in, without even knowing
my thoughts are consumed by the look in your eyes
it seems i'm giving in, although it may not be wise

i can't think of anything else; it seems there's only you
i smile to myself just thinking about the things you say and do
what could you have done to make me hooked once again
there's so much running through my head, i just can't pretend

still, i know i've had this feeling many times before
and once i get what i want, i just don't feel it anymore
i don't want to rush 'cause i'm too afraid i might stumble
and if my heart gets hurt it might lead to some trouble

i want to keep myself under control and not let myself go
there're so many feelings flowing that i won't let you know
you make me smile, and it hasn't even been long
and i see this feeling growing way too strong
i'm so scared, but it's exciting to feel this way
not knowing what to expect with each passing day

list of wht I want frm my lyf....... ;)

So, here I am finishing one more boring day at work. I swear, I wanna go back to the time when there was barter system or may be I won’t even mind the stone age, atleast it wouldn’t be as bad as these days in office. Wonder, who thought about making offices??? Goshhhh, wanna kill him for sure!!!

My fave time pass now is FB. Nah, nah, m way too far with Farmville now but j love expressing thoughts ova home page ;) den reading comments of ppl arnd who are equally vella as me…..heheheheeh…..

A draggy day with uninteresting ppl is what I hate d most…..n imagine m stuck wid it since so long now. **sob sob**

I m j unable to figure out wht exactly do I want frm my life….Like, right now, wht can u understand reading dis blog – “written aimlessly” – for sure!!!!!

Ok, letz make a list of wht I want frm my lyf ----

1. I wanna get rid of his thoughts. Stop missing him at all!!!!
2. I want a new job with the profile that I desire.
3. I wanna learn swimming before summers get over.
4. I want to relocate from delhi to sum oda city and stay alone for sumtym.
5. I wanna go in for Jacuzzi at Slect City.
6. I want a black color CRV.


Guess that will be all for the time being.
Letz c how many are acceptable by GOD…. Amen!!! *wink****

Valentine’s Day...... **blush blush**

This is the Valentine’s Day special episode!!!

Had a gala time and a memorable trip!! We started the journey from Bikaner house on
12th Feb'10 {forgot my buddy's b'day coz of the excitement :( soooo "SORRY" Buddy!!} So, it goes without saying that we were super excited about the weekend trip. Especially when me n christy **my sweetheart** are together, one can expect all the dotty dioramas around :P

Ok, ok, back to the topic - So, we took the bus and started our adventures trip **nah nah,the trip was not to mountains, but was to "Jaipur", it was us who made it adventures**. We left Delhi at 1:30 pm and believe me, it was the most tiring journey one could ever experience. As correctly said by Ms. Peter - it was **GHATAK**.....We learnt all Baba Ramdev's aasans by the end of it...Succha pain in all the wrong places :( Still, we enjoyed as much as we could, our time pass - clicking pics, reading books & all time favorite **BC** (don't think dirty - I meant Baat Cheet :P)...Also, how can I forget to mention the most helpful gadget - "I-POD", Real time life saver :D

After struggling for 8 long hours, we finally managed to get our asses off from that weird bus. Goshhhh!!!! I have never had succha tough time traveling....BTW, Christy did all the hotel arrangements and as was expected, there as no cab to pick us. Hence, we got an auto to get to the hotel [the hotel paid for the auto, so I didn't feel too bad really ;)]

As soon as we stepped in the auto, we made sure to convince the auto wala bhaiya to get us buy some Vodka **wink**…and he happily agreed to take us to a wine shop with an additional charge of Rs. 30/- ..after a Km or so, he stopped his auto and asked us to go out n shop what we were looking for and to our surprise he misunderstood a wine shop to a Chemist shop :P….By the time we managed to explain him, he timidly smiled and said “madam main samajh gaya aap log joh bol rahe hain par yahan shops 8 baje band ho jaati hain”……N that was enough to put us off for a while again!!! Super tiring trip, lots of yoga and no vodka :( …….

Finally we managed to reach our hotel. Was a nice “haweli” tagging few big alphabetical stuff saying “BANI PARK PALACE” loud n clear enough to make one feel a little rich ;) We had a warm welcome and along with it a helpful Receptionist who offered us some chilled beer. We asked him to serve us some dinner quickly with two bottles of bear **nah nah, m still not a beer fan, but as they say “majboori ka naam Mahatma Gandhi”**. So, yup I didn’t have any other choice but to grab whatever was available. We got ready for the dinner and went to the sexy roof top to get some filling food with few stunning pictures *giggles*….. Was a nice vegetarian dinner consisting of my favorite Daal Makhni and Jeera Rice, yummmmmmyyyy!!!. N yes about the beer, as expected we could not control our voracity so ordered for 2 bottles but could only finish one, nah nah, we didn’t waste the other one – just that it was used as a conditioner for our hair :)……We then went back to our room, nice cozy one and watched “Rahul ka Swyamvar” **don’t get us wrong, it was just to make fun of it :p**

Next morning, the day seemed beautiful…We got ready and went for our breakfast in the garden. Nice coffee with awesome weather and a couple of hot parathas, hummmm, that’s all one longs for.

We started our day’s tour by visiting a lot of places (not getting in details as 1- you guys have seen enough pics and 2- I don’t wanna bore you), but it would be sad if I don’t mention the fort that we went to. Auto wala bhaiya took us there and almost charged a fortune for it, still we didn’t complain coz he saved our guide’s expense because of his brilliant PR skills and he also was an on job photographer for us who not only clicked our pics but also gave us tips to pose. Was good fun!!

Then we headed to our fave job – “shopping”, bought everything starting from bangles to earrings to bandhani suits…while coming back, we met few greedy cops who tortured our driver enough to get some bribe and finally agreed on 100/- bucks coz the auto wala bhaiya was becoming a bond and was driving without sufficient papers of vehicle ownership and to top it all, he was not carrying his driving license either…but yeh, as far as you are in India and have Mr. Gandhi with you, you can get out of any mess :p

We planned to visit chowkidhani in the eve but by the day end we were so freaking tired that we could not care for more but decided to hog few snacks in the hotel and move out for a mouth watering non-veg dinner to handi. Hence, we grabbed few pakoras and wafers and moved out after an hour rest. And yes, the food was awesome and even if it was not I will have to say that it was coz we paid almost the entire three days trip food cost to “Handi”….totally crazyyyyyy…..

Reached back to the hotel after much adventure of handling the “staring to rape glare” from all jaipur men, and started our gossip channel again ;)….we shared all the stories of our ex’s and non ex’s maniacs who were with us at some point in time and so, thanked god to pull us out of those muddled relationships…And finally the night ended. With a new dayspring we packed our bags and came back from a gratifying trip!!!! Yayyaayyy!!!


And yup, to add the last tint of enthusiasm, we came planning our next trip to Kanha in MP on the way back with of coarse not to forget, accomplishing all the Baba Ramdev's aasans with sheer perfection!! lolzzzzzzzzzzzzz :D

"YOU" is all I need.............

Last night I read a cute love story
Felt it was so similar to mine
The way we started getting close
I knew, to fall in love was destined

Did never believe in love before
But the day I met you
I didn’t know what was that feel
But it felt real special and new

The warmth of the sun today
Makes me recall the night
When I was lying beside you
Keeping away all the fright

You made me feel complete
With your passionate touch
And I didn’t even realize
When I fell in that hutch

I look back to the phase
Trying to find if my eyes can gaze
Just a glimpse is all I need
My eyes are craving to get feed

Still standing there
Hoping you might hold my hand
Take me out of this darkness
And find me my lost fairy land

Solace........

Striving for solace again,
Dun know if itz worth even,
I dun say m d only one unhappy,
Coz whn I luk arnd I find faces wid pain…

There is nuthin left to salvage,
He says dis all d tym,
Though he might care,
But all dzn seem worthwhile…

Please come back for once,
N embrace me in ur arms,
I can still feel dat warmth,
N hope to get a new dawn..

I know my hopes r false,
N itz not easy to live a fake lyf.
All I wan is to get u back ,
Or to lie tonight and die..

Lyf was nva succha burden,
But now it just dzn seem to end..
No matter how hard I try,
It has become a wild demon….

I need my lyf back..... (or may b i just dun wan a lyffffff..)

Here I am feeling low again,
It feels I am doomed to experience my life this way.
Though it would be unfair to blame someone else,
Still my heart weeps n takes all those names…

Once I trusted all of them,
And now I’m shattered by getting such cruel rides,
I know I need to forgive coz I loved once,
And I still want them to get a happy life….

It doesn’t matter now if you are beside me or not,
I know at least you will remain in my heart forever,
For you it might be easy to say the two words “ALL OVER”,
For me – my breath stops with those two n leaves me disarray…

Once I was full of life,
Living in my dreamland all the time,
Keeping all the pain in the world aside,
I was the princess of wonderful smile..

My life has lost all d charm,
And I don’t feel like fetching it back even,
I’m left alone in a hutch,
The pain seems like my best friend,
Ready to accompany me with all the reasons…

Still waitin.........

At times, you fail to understand the decisions made by destiny for you,
And wht wud u do if u dun wanna accept ny of dem??
Here I am, sharing sum of the decisions made for my lyf widout my consent....


Sitting alone in dark tonight,
Makes me feel this pining more.
Don’t know when would this dilemma end,
And lead me towards the shore….

If at all I could reverse my life,
Would want to go back to that time,
When I was allowed to feel you this close,
And was able to believe you are mine..

Things in life seems much disturbed,
All the smiles are badly scattered.
Nothing seems bright anymore,
All ways to happiness seems shattered.

Still, I have not given up the hope,
And will surely make you fall in love once again.
I know the feelings in you are not dead yet,
Though, it sometimes causes a lot of pain.

Just wanted to let you know that,
I don’t say “I love you” just for the sake of it..
But, I truly mean it from the bottom of my heart,
And want to get the same passion in your heart lit….